The "IDIOT BOX "

Today being a holiday ,there was nothing much to do..Instead of reading a book , I thought of Surfing channels (which i regretted later ) . For, almost a hour I was just flipping through channels then I Came across INDIA TV ,which always highlights Good Breaking news like colonel’s lost dog , rat escaping a crow, Cows being kidnapped by aliens. Well ,this time it was even better.. It said that Kalyug had come to an end and some people have predicted it , and it also gave suggestions to enter satyug ,when kalyug ends..All this was made to look very realistic ,with scenes showing the end of world taken from Hollywood flicks ..Wow !! Really one hilarious channel..

Except a few news channels that concentrate on showing relevant news ,others resort to cheap publicity by showing things as if it were a daily soap.. Moreover , every news is shown to sensationalize the case..

Iam appalled at the lack of good content on TV nowdays . Absolutely nothing seems good enough to watch.
Also ,the new hindi movie trailers on TV ,are full of skin show ,sleaze ,style and absolute zero concept . No wonder of late ,bollywood has produces so many duds at the box Office .
Every movie being a love story or a love triangle ..I Mean how many variations can you have with that same concept..

Also shows like Roadies ,spitsville and big boss ,where everything seems scripted ,its only a game of TRP’s ..In one of the episodes of Indian Idol 4 ,during the eviction scene (you know how melodramatic they make it ) as usual the anchor kept asking questions to the evicted contestant like “How do you feel that you are out of the show ?” “How do you feel that your journey has ended here ..Please sing your last song on the show...Put in such a situation ,anyone would cry ...You see , they literary make you do that…Dont they understand that when you are on TV ,u get more vulnerable and questions like these are only for getting tears rolling ..again game of TRP’s ..One evicted contestant even went to the extent of saying that his future generations will never choose full time singing. Is this the end of everything or what?

Well if we are left to seeing all that crap around us ..What good will it do to us?. The adage “You are what you see” says it all..

Atleast some years back shows on TV seemed watchable..Even Shaktimaan’s each episode ended with a social message.There was good content for everyone in the family.
The only respite you can find these days is Animal planet ,History channel, Discovery channel etc ,where its more inspiring to see people do extraordinary things , exploring new places ,how they live in extreme climates ,it’s the only originality you can see on TV..

As for me ,after wasting an hour , I finally switched off the TV and picked up a Book to read..

That's the club house next to my new place,where i recently shifted (my club house pic taken from net) ..

I had been thinking of visiting that place since i moved here .It has a swimmming pool ,tennis court ,snooker room ,gym etc..

During weekdays ,after all the exhaustion , i just coudnt gather strength to go there.. But today being a sunday ,decided to go there..As such i dont really prefer gyming, as it is an indoor activity and can be quite boring ,some active sports like say swimming ,or even jogging would be better ..But then thought of giving it a try today..

When i entered gym ,there was no instructor , just 4-5 people .So i really didnt know what to do ,saw an aunty on the treadmill ,so decided to hit the treadmill after she was done.

This is the first time i used a treadmill ..I gradually increased the speed ,in between it got so boring that felt like jumping off the treadmill ,but then continued for 30 mins ..After that i immediatly got off the treadmill , and couldnt stand still ,i just kept walking due to reflex action and was feeling quite dizzy . Iam sure ,people there must have thought Im some kind of a wierdo..Anyways so that's the experience at the club house ..But serioulsy i would have prefered walking in a park or even in my building complex compared to the gym ..

Huh ,its been a long long time since i wrote my last post .Wow!! it feels good writing something atleast..

Well a lot many things have changed ,i have shifted to a new house ,and in these 4 months my office has shifted twice ..Well new place , new people ,new office( i got shifted to this place twice) ,its taking some time to get adjusted..

Its been almost 4 months and so much to write...Well Im glad i atleast started it now..

Today in office ,i just happened to tell one of my collegues that i blog ,so i showed her mine ..After that i felt like reading some of my posts ,then saw some of the comments ,then went on to read my friends blog ,then their comments , and it went on and on ,until it finally dawned upon me that i was in office and surfing is not allowed.. So before someone would catch me doing that i logged out..

So once i was back home ,I rushed to my PC and decided to inaugrate my blog once again..

Its Sunday Finally..

A lazy day so far , After waking up late , and having Brunch, was just thinking what to do..And the list started..
All the incomplete things that i intended to do on weekdays ,which i didn't accomplish , in fact didn't even start .
There were So many things i wanted to do on week days ,but couldn't ..i wouldn't attribute that to lack of time ,but sheer laziness.
After office ,When i reached home i would just bed down ,and then wake up ,watch a bit of TV and go back to bed again ..As usual extra addicted to sleep..
The only day i get after 6 working days ..So on Sundays my mind keeps vacillating ,i feel like multitasking ,doing as many things as possible.

Lets go shopping today ..or maybe watch Narnia ,it wont be in the theaters next week

Hey what bout that book i purchased last week?? haven't even started reading that..

But wait got to finish the book I'm reading now ,just 20 pages remaining..

Ya ,But today is the only day i can take a nap in the afternoon.How can i miss that ,OK then after nap I'll go movie and then shopping,and maybe read the book till late night..

And wait,what about writing ,my blog??

Huh,but i promised My mom ,i would clean my cupboard ,which is in a mess ..That would take so much time..

And what about that incomplete painting which i had to finish and get it framed??..
Phew!! might just go mad thinking bout the list of things i want to do today..

We'll atleast one I'm done with one.. writing my blog..

Who is the Real animal???

Today i happened to come across a headline in one of the leading newspapers ,which said that rhinocerous could soon be extinct in India..I was shocked..

Most of the species are anyways endangered ,because of poaching .Now they'll be extinct..

Its really sad to see the apathy of most people towards animals.

Its a common site to see cows been left on the streets.Where they are easily hit by vehicles .The worst thing is they feed on garbage ,because of which they end up eating plastic ,eventually they die soon..

Recently , an incident happened in one of the temples during some ceremony ,where it was a custom to pull the tail of elephant and chase it.The poor pachyderm, couldnt tolerate the pain of so many people pulling its tail, it went mad ..It crushed one person to death.All this was captured on camera.

Another incident that i remember ,where a leopard was caught by some villagers and it was stoned to death..

Even Bengal tigers are on the verge of extinction..

Most of the animals are killed for their horn, their skin.And all this is sold for huge sums of money..

I dont know how , this can be stopped completely.

Atleast not buying products that use such stuff ,could make a difference..

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These days i feel sooo somnolent..

I guess even 10 hrs of sleep isn't sufficient.
I know people can survive with just 4-5 hours of sleep .I have tried that too , but couldn't do it for more than 3 days...Now its getting worse , i cant even try it for a day...

Before, whenever i felt like disconnecting myself from reality , i would sleep..

When i was scared to face my problems, or i needed a solution to some problem i would sleep
Then when i woke up ,it felt so good..
Somehow I felt more confident ....as if ,i got some free counselling in my sleep.

Its different now , Whenever i sleep to escape something , the thought keeps chasing me in my dreams , so it seems better waking up..

Before i could sleep and wake up anytime as if my internal clock was at its best
Now things have changed i can sleep anytime, but wake up only after 10-12 hrs.

My brother keeps telling me ,that people who are depressed sleep a lot,
It makes me feel miserable ,but I don't believe that at all.

WORDS THAT STUCK ON.....

Sometimes words that we use are more loyal than friends,They stick to you through thick and thin and always try to get included in every conversation you have.I have really tried, and i mean it to consciously get rid of some words that i used intermittently.

There was a time when I would repeat everything twice ,Which went like

Every morning morning i hate waking up or
Wow that's good good

I know thats obnoxiously irritating.

Later after a few months ,whenever i fell short of words i would end my conversation with blah blah blah. My friends were particularly irritated with this habit because whatever i spoke it never made sense.

After some months it changed, for anything and everything i would say toooo much.With an exaggerated toooooooo

Then it switched to - that's that hmmmmmmmmmmm.......

Now latest whenever anyone asks me for something say howz ur job going??

Answer is always "NORMAL"

or say howz life ,salary,bosses,movie,book blah blah blah??? anything and everything is normal

Its a patent word, that i often use now.

I dont know how long it will last.... Till i start using another one....

Have you ever experienced moments in your life where uncertainity grips you and you tread taking every small step in life?Well thats exactly what Iam going through rite now.

I am always thinking of what lies ahead in life for me and what i fear the most ,is that i might not get what i desire.This fear has been perpetual,there seems no end.

When i was small, there was fear of exams,where everyone around me from teachers to parents would pressurize me to score well.It was cliche, of them to say that if you dont get good marks you wont succeed in life.That's one parameter i never used to judge my performance.School days were only mugging up.It never taught us how to live,or how to earn,except it taught us to learn a lot of gibberish most of which we dont remember or even use now.I always thought of Bill gates who was a college dropout,Richard Branson a Dyslexic,and it gave me some respite.In college ,there was fear of not getting a good Job. After job there was fear of not getting appraisal.Besides , i also fear crowded areas.Infact, thats another story altogether and i could go on and on about my agoraphobia,but as of now i wont discuss that.Well, is there an end to this dilemma??

I dont know, but yes Iam trying. The only time i remember i was fearless was when i was a kid. Back then i was not ashamed of anything,i would ask for anything i want, without fear of rejection.I would talk rubbish without fearing what others would think.Later over the years i lost that quality and then others fears became my fears.Without even trying, i would trust what others would say about something.Opinion was the cheapest thing available and everybody seemed to be giving me opinions on what should or should not be done.Ultimately I was not myself anymore.My thoughts were what others thought about something.If they said it was easy it was,If they said it was difficult it was.

This feeling of uncertainity has built up over the years and its because i have never confronted my fears head on.Now that i feel i should try everything in life an make an opinion based on what i think.If i like it i go ahead else i drop it.I dont like saying that i cant do this ,because someone else has told me,but i'd rather say i tried it myself and didnt like it.I want to be as i was when i was a kid,fearless. There was no fear then as i always felt god was with me, watching over me, and protecting me.

When i was a kid i would dream all day ,without worrying the outcome.My dreams were crazy ,i dreamt of making friends with giants, Or of having some tiny human as my friend ,who was the size of my thumb.I would imagine that he would make me his size and then we would enter his tiny world ,which was through a tiny crevice in the wall. All this i guess was Alice in wonderland inspired. It's just that i always thought of whatever i felt like.

Now Dreams are not even half as wacky as they used to be. So , as much as i loathe being uncertain,i hope that i stop fearing the unknown and start trusting myself more..

Note::I have used (i) throughout doesnt mean i have a big inflated ego,its just that "we" might not be appropriate because others might not feel the same.

A SALUTE TO WOMEN!!

Geeta was deeply immersed in her thoughts. She seemed perturbed about something, there was sadness in her eyes. She knew laxmi would be gone in sometime.

Geeta stayed with her eldest son Hari, granddaughter and grandsons in a tiny village ,65
miles northwest of Bhopal. She was staring outside the window of her mud house,watching laxmi
play tug-of war with 2 young boys. Laxmi was 11 years old.She loathed playing girly
games. She wasn't the dainty type, she was the tough one ,more of a tomboy. Geeta always
teasingly told laxmi,that she thought,she was a boy trapped in a girls body. Geeta really adored her only grandaughter.She had 4 grandsons,but laxmi was the youngest.Laxmi's mother had died 2 months after her birth.So it was geeta who took care of
laxmi. Geeta always hoped that laxmi got everything she was deprived of. But,now it
seemed a distant reality. Her dreams were shattered.Laxmi's father had gone to the city to
buy her wedding clothes.

Geeta was just 10 when she was married during Akkha teej,which is considered a very auspicious day for marriage's.There were 6 other couples.All more or less her age.She saw
her husband for the first time during her wedding.She kept sobbing during the entire
ceremony,she was too young to understand anything,But she knew that she would have to leave her parents.Her father considered girls a burden ,so he hastily got all his 5 daughters
married young. Geeta's father felt blessed for getting rid of his daughters ,whereas for her
all this seemed like a nightmare. After marriage ,she was treated like a servant,she would do household chores,and also help in field work.She had always dreamt of living in some big city,earning something on her own.But they stayed as dreams.She gave birth to a premature kid when she was just 15,which died months later.Her in laws cursed her for it.She gave birth to 3 children,only 2 survived.Laxmi was her 3rd sons daughter.Her eldest Daughter had eloped with someone from the neighbouring village,and settled in a city.She was obviously abandoned by her family.

Four days ago,Hari broke the news to Geeta ,that he had fixed laxmi's marriage with a
18 th year old boy from the neighbouring village,and she would get married in 2 weeks.She
tried her best to dissuade her son from getting laxmi married and persuade him to allow
laxmi 2 study further,but to no avail.He felt getting a girl educated would mean more
troubles in life.For the next 2 days Geeta was melancholy,she had never anticipated that her
son would take such a decision without her consent.She had big dreams for her
granddaughter.She was determined that she would not let laxmi get married so early.
Years back there was an awareness programme by an organisation in her village,
through which Geeta got to know about the law that said girls should be married only after
18.S he knew this was safe both for the mother and child. Two days back,she contacted the
organisation volunteers. She walked 4 miles in the hot sun to reach a phone booth,made a call
and pleaded them to help her granddaughter.They offered to help her.She had asked them to come home after 2 days when hari would be in the city.

She was staring outside her window waiting for them.It was a tough decision, and she knew well, that she wouldn't see laxmi for a long time.Her grandmother had packed her clothes.Laxmi was still playing outside, unaware of what was happening .Besides she didn't want laxmi to go through the miseries she suffered.There at a distance Geeta could see a jeep approach her house.There was a driver and two women.They had come to take Laxmi.

Geeta spoke to them,tears streaming her eyes.She asked them to take good care of Laxmi.Geeta then called laxmi,who came running towards her.She told her that she would be going to some place for a few days where she would get loads of toys and sweets.Laxmi refused to go and cling ed hard to her grandmother.But Geeta summoned them to take laxmi away before her father returned.Laxmi yelled and screamed, as they pulled her towards the jeep.She thought grandmother didnt love her enough,and didnt know why she was doing this to her.In no time,Laxmi was taken in the jeep . Geeta fought back her tears ,as she knew this ephemeral sadness,would save laxmi from the eternal sadness that she would suffer otherwise.


This Women's day is a salute to all those women who have fought back the rigid rules of the society to change it,who have in their own way made someones life better and worth living,and who have added a new meaning to life with their unflinching strength and wisdom.

Trafik Chaos!!!

I have always wished, for a great start in the morning,as that keeps me energized for the rest of the day.But, its mumbai's traffic that spoils the rest of my day. Getting stuck up in traffic for long hours causes so much eenui. Traffic here is enormous,and its getting worst day by day.Cant imagine what'll happen when nano's hit the road. The cacophony of vehicles honking, has made me partially deaf.And then people do get embroiled in fights,as to whose vehicle will go first.The worst thing is that the roads are narrow,and vehicles huge. Roads are such that just one vehicle can pass by at a time.Its incredible to see almost 3 vehicles manevoure their way through it.Digging up of roads is perpetual.God only knows what treasure they intend to find, by doing that.

Now That's what I call ATTITUDE

A soldier stationed in Afghanistan recently received a letter from his girlfriend back home. It read as follows:

Dear Ricky,
I can no longer continue our relationship. The distance between us is just toogreat. I'm sorry. Please return the picture of me that I sent to you.
Love, Becky

The soldier, with hurt feelings, asked his fellow soldiers for any snapshots they could spare of their girlfriends, sisters or ex-girlfriends. In addition to the picture of Becky, Ricky included all the other pictures of the prettygals he had collected from his buddies. There were 57 photos in that envelope along with this note:

Dear Becky,
I'm so sorry, but I can't quite remember who the hell you are. Please take your picture from the pile, and send the rest back to me.
Take Care, Ricky

Moral of the story: If you can't change your fate, change your ATTITUDE!!!!!:)

What we are today and what we will be tomorrow depends entirely upon certain decisions we take in our life’s. Circumstances don’t change but our attitude towards problems in life can be changed. Its the only thing we can have total control of.
There are some who get totally perturbed under certain circumstances, yet a few are in total control of the situation and themselves. Some are complaining all the time, yet a few stoically accept the agony of life .Some give up when they see signs of failure, yet a few cling to their dreams inspite of repeated failures. What separates the few from the rest is .Well you guessed it right.
Its their attitude
So here I begin my blog , with a positive attitude and hoping to continue it for a long time

Some really nice quotes that I have come across

Human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.
William James

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain.
Maya Angelou